Ellen Page was scared she would receive a lot of “hate” after coming out.
The Hollywood actress initially felt hesitant to tell anyone that she was a gay woman in Hollywood. The 27-year-old has now opened up about why it felt like the right time to discuss her personal life, even though she feared the public’s reaction.
“You think you’re in a place when you’re all I’m thrilled to be gay, I have no issues about being gay anymore, I don’t feel shame about being gay, but you actually do,” she told Canada’s Flare Magazine. “You’re just not fully aware of it. I think I still felt scared about people knowing. I felt awkward around gay people; I felt guilty for not being myself.”
Ellen came out during a speech she made at the Human Rights Campaign Foundation’s inaugural Time to Thrive conference in February. She has explained why it was so important for her to be true to herself and stop hiding.
“The more time went by, the more something just happened, and, oh my god – I want to love someone freely and walk down the street and hold my girlfriend’s hand,” Ellen added.
The Juno actress also addresses Hollywood’s “double standard,” and how she felt pressured to hide her sexual orientation.
“You hear things like, ‘People shouldn’t know about your life because you’re creating an illusion on-screen,’” she said. “But I don’t see other actresses going to great lengths to hide their heterosexuality. That’s an unfair double standard.”
As for the aftermath of coming out, Ellen expected a backlash from her peers in the industry.
“I expected so much more hate,” she explains. “It was just remarkably positive, which is beautiful, because it’s indicative of the change that’s happening.”
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